The Mom Revolution
I feel like I am in the middle of a revolution (a momolution, if you will). For the first time since I became a mom, I feel good about what I am doing for my family.
Mom Guilt is REAL
And man, I was hit with it HARD. (Struggling to bond with my child for the first 4 months didn’t help, but that’s a different story).
The mom guilt strikes me the most with going to work and letting my daughter watch TV.
I felt like a bad mom for leaving my daughter, the little human I created, at daycare while I went to my teaching job.
I would think to myself, why am I here taking care of other people’s kids but not my own?
I would try to think of ways to leave. To make it work with me being home. I would make myself sick because of it.
Then it dawned on me: I am a rockstar teacher, who teaches rockstar students, and yeah, the environment might not always be the best but it’s what I’m meant to do. God definitely gave me this vocation.
I may not be with my child, but she is somewhere where she is oh so loved and has FUN! Most days she is disappointed that I am there to pick her up!
As a bonus- I’m doing what I love too and with some amazing people! So, I see it as ok in my book!
Overall, just do what feels best for you and what you think God is calling you to do. If that’s staying home- that’s ok! If that’s working- that’s ok too!
Screen Time: Friend or Enemy?
I see screen time as a frenemy ( I’m just doing all kinds of word combos today).
When my child watches TV, it makes my soul ache. I think about how bad it is for her, how the fast moving pictures could cause ADHD (I have no idea if this is true, it’s just my anxiety), or how I should be spending more quality time with her.
For these reasons, I limit TV to one episode of her favorite show a day (Storybots). But that’s on a good day.
Sometimes, I’m trying to make dinner and when nothing else stops the incessant whining, then TV it is.
It’s not perfect, but it’s ok for me.
And that’s how I feel about parenting in general. Not everyday is going to be the best day ever. Not every choice I will make as a parent is going to be great. But I know that every day I try to do what’s best.
And that’s ok with me.